Starting Out...

Today was not the best day for me to start doing this....Well introductions first. My name is Toi or Toyia how every you want to say it...I am 28 and married (unhappily) and I have a son who is my world and he is 2...I am a housewife (even though I really don't want to be) and most of my day is spent with my son in an apartment day in and day out...exciting, i know. I am married to a US Marine and most of you would be like.."That is the life," or "They are SO hot!" But I am here to say that is not the case...Yes my husband is attractive, and yes my husband can beat up your husband, and can kill someone from 5 football fields away...but he is also stubborn, narrow minded and cocky...not to mention hates almost everything about me...He says that I should grow up..mainly cause yes I do play video games, and yes I do watch anime almost every single day and yes I also listen to a variety of music which includes j-pop and k-pop. But I was told not even an hour ago that those things basically are stupid and that I am not a grown up for liking them...but does that mean that video game designers and anime artist and storyboard writers and voice actors are not also grown up? but anyway past that...Things here lately with me have been weird..it is like I am unsatisfied with alot in my life and what I am doing and it just seems that i am basically just going through the motions hoping for more. True at one point I was a hell of a singer and I did community theater and I enjoyed doing those things but lately it is the Hikkamori thing and I am no longer satisfied with it...I feel that I am rambling...but with no one to support me or to talk to what am I to do or who am I to turn to...no friends and isolated...my life is turning in something I never wanted it to be....I want out.